Saturday, October 14, 2006

I totally choked

Yup I choked. We loaded the kids and headed to the mall. I had every intention of trying out. We walk through the mall to where Vanna White and crew are. I turn the corner and see a large crowd gathered. That's when it hit me. No way could I get myself up there in front of all those people! I literally choked and almost burst in to tears. I thought I was going to hyperventilate. I almost broke out in a run trying to get away from there. Jimmy said there's always tomorrow or next week. Or some other time. But all I knew was there was no way I was getting on that stage in front of people. I'm such a coward. LOL

So instead we went to Target and bought a birthday present for the party we were going to later. One of Jimmy's co-workers was having a birthday party for his 2 year old, who was absolutely adorable! And his wife was such a nice woman. They had a jump castle. So the kids had a great time. Justin wasn't feeling well and I learned he had a fever. I got some children's tylenol from Jimmy's co-worker and Justin sat away from everyone else. He's now passed out on the couch where he's been since we got home at 4. I should have known something was wrong when he voluntarily went to bed at 7:30 last night.


Ami said...

You're not a coward. You just have limits. We all do.

Sorry your little guy is sick. Hope he's better soon.

Margo said...

Hope Justin's feeling better.

I'm sure you would have done great, but I understand how you feel.

Sunnie (Kaytee) said...

Ami, that;s so true. But until the other day, I'd always felt confident about "conquering" Wheel of Fortune." But when it came down to it, I couldn't face all those strange people. LOL

Sunnie (Kaytee) said...

Margo, Justin is doing wonderful

But even so, there's no way I can bring myself to be in front of so many people. And Jay was sweet enough to tell me earlier that if there was parent/child night, he would volunteer to go with me, knowing full well he sucks. But he was confident enough in me to know we would kick ass, even without his help.
I felt even more like a coward for not trying harder.
But honestly, I felt so sick to my stomach at the thought of getting in front of so many people, that I knew there was no way I could follow through unless it was some private audition type thing.